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Johanna, I have had many things attack me, as have many others. I have
suffered the loss of many loved ones in my life and I have lost many things
that are precious to me-through no apparent fault of my own. My mother died
when I was a little boy. My sister was killed by a drunk driver. I lost the
wife that I really loved. (She is my friend now by the way and one of my
biggest helps in life and I really like her husband too.) Blah Blah Blah...
Many feelings attack us. But they are not real. You don't have to believe in
them.
This year I lost all that I have worked for 20 years for. If I did not know
Who I know, I would be devastated and depressed. But I am not depressed. I
am so thankful for this!!
As they took my last truck away down my driveway-my *baby*, The Red F350 4x4
diesel pickup with the killer stereo and 350hp powerpack engine and all of
the goodies, I did not even look back. At this point I had NO truck, or car
for that matter. Ford was ruthless even though I had bought and paid off 9
straight cars and trucks with them over the years. I went into the house and
my heroin addict wife told me "They can take your truck, but they cannot take
the Lord away from you."
I started to read in my book where I left off (The Overcoming Life) and I
read this: "He has said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My power
is perfected in weakness. Most gladly therefore I will rather boast in my
weakness that the power of Christ might tabernacle over me." 2 Cor. 2:19
Watchman Nee then added: "Weakness is something that one should boast in.
You may have said,' Thank and praise the Lord because He has made me
overcome,' but have you ever said, 'Thank and praise the Lord because he has
made me fail miserably'? You thank and praise the Lord for giving you
patience, but have you thanked and praised Him for your impossible temper?
Have you thanked and praised him for your pride? Have you thanked and
praised Him for your jealousy? Have you thanked and praised Him for your
uncleanness within and for your sin? If you have these problems, you should
thank and praise the Lord for them. The first thing you must do is realize
that you cannot make it. The second thing you should do is give up trying to
make it. The third thing you should do is thank and praise God for not being
able to make it. At this point, God will make it for you. Halleluiah, I
cannot make it!!" Vickie and I shouted this out loud and danced with joy.
It is a blessing to be weak. To be so strong and successful makes it very
difficult to get the enormous help of God. He wants to *be* everything to
us. But we often do not want Him. So we stay us. We all have won the lotto
and have the winning ticket, but because we do not believe it, we do not cash
it in. So we just stay spiritually broke. Johanna, you are very special.
Now you can hear Him. You have nothing to lose and that makes you a very
dangerous person to the enemy. Your heart is free now. Now God can do his
thing. He will undo everything that was done *to* you. You can trust Him
forever. Vickie, my wife, thanked the Lord for her heroin addiction. The
chains fell off of her for the first time in her life. Her spiritual eyes
were opened and she instantly realized that she was precious to Him and did
not believe that she was a "bum"any longer. Her dad threw her in the trash at
7 years old. Many people did unspeakable things to her from this age onward.
Her tears came down at this revelation from God and the power underneath the
drug was shattered. She has some things to clear up, but she is full of hope
now. Her humanity is now being restored. She knows her sprirt and no one can
ever take that away from her. Or you, Johanna. God is not limited by time
or space. He is only limited by our willingness to open to Him. This is an
individual matter. I have lost many things learning this lesson, but
gradually I am becoming rich. The things I lost cannot compare to Him.
"I'd gladly lose me to find You." I call that a Bargain. The best I ever
had.
Jon in Mi.