Re: I got some 'splainin' to do.

["william sturm" <hapijac@xxxxxxx>]

Hey Johanna,
 I enjoy reading your posts a lot for the most part but ones I don't
subscribe to I blow off,no biggy.I wish others would do the same and not get
personal. I have met a few of these listers and enjoyed it a hell of a
lot.It helped me get over losing the ox. It's a holiday so turn up the
volume and forget about it!!!!
                       Be Happy!!!!
                           Bill Sturm


----- Original Message -----
From: <SicilianMother@aol.com>
To: <thewho@igtc.com>
Sent: Sunday, May 25, 2003 5:37 PM
Subject: I got some 'splainin' to do.


> Hello listers,
>
> It is slow on the list today, so I am going to take this opportunity to
> extend an olive branch.
>
> I have gotten' some guff from a few here lately, mostly for my below the
belt
> comment to Lew.  In a way, I guess I deserve it.
>
> I am sorry Lew.
>
> I know if we all met, we'd probably get along good.  I am not a bitch,
like
> it sometimes seems like I am.  I am basically a people pleaser kind of
> personality.  I take pride in that.  I am also a very loyal person.  Once
I bond with
> someone, I take that seriously, not obsessively, but I like to like people
> that I meet.
>
> I am also a person who has many contradictory and different sides to them.
I
> can hang with the bad boys, I can tea with the proper ladies, I can cry
> easily and I can be a rock when called upon.  I can hold my own in some
very
> intellectual subjects, but be obviously and completely clueless in others.
Also on
> the down side, I sometimes come across as flaky, impulsive and immature.
>
> I sometimes wish I could go back and start over on the list.  But, the
fact
> of the matter is, you all probably have seen all the true sides of me at
one
> time or another, the good, the bad and the ugly.  I have never
intentionally
> tried to be something I am not.  It is kind of like, take me the way I am
for
> better or worse.  I am not totally surprised that others would prefer to
do
> without me here.  But, I want to try and make peace with the ones (Rich,
Kev,
> Scott, Lew and others) that have expressed their displeasure of me and the
things I
> say.
>
> Contrary to what I posted last week about Lew being mean to me because I
> wouldn't go out with him, until that point, I tried to keep my
conversations with
> him and other listers that are done privately, confidential.  I'd like to
> re-pledge my confidentiality to all. Even though I was mad at Lew, I
should have
> kept that private.  Plus, I only showed my side of the story anyway.  I
was
> bad.
>
> I am a lover, not a fighter.......but I don't try and cover up my
feelings.
> My feelings are that I like hangin' with my IGTC Who list friends, and I
don't
> want to be boycotted because of things I have said.  I want to try and
make
> things right now, so I apologize.
>
> I don't hold it against anyone who is not of the same opinion I am about
> Pete, the Who, politics, religion or anything else that is not evil.  I
like to
> debate those subjects.  But, just because I don't have the same beliefs,
doesn't
> make me "BAD."  Just because you don't have the same opinions, doesn't
make
> you "BAD."  The problem comes when we take a good natured ribbing and turn
it
> into a personal attack.  I am guilty of this as well as several others on
the
> list.  If I like Bush and someone hates him, do I deserve to be blasted?
On
> the other hand, I shouldn't make blanket statements about, Democrats for
> example, like everything about every Democrat is evil.  I try and respect
others
> beliefs and we should all try and do more of that.  I don't mean that in a
> condescending way and I am just using party affiliation as an example of
just one
> idea that we debate here.  In person, I would treat each and every one the
same
> here based on how you treat me.  Period.  In my own defense though, I felt
Lew
> and a few others, have taken a few cheap shots at me that were unprovoked
and
> I didn't deserve.  But, I fuck up and have fucked up and for that I
apologize.
>
> Sincerely,
> Johanna <who is making herself very vulnerable, but trusts that I can
handle
> whatever is tossed back at me>