The Wonky One

[SicilianMother@xxxxxxx]

I am going to throw in my feelings towards yesterday's news.

Yesterday's news of "Pete is cleared"  BUT "name is on sex offender 
registry", did not have nearly the impact of the news in January <just ask 
one lister that I called hysterically sobbing with the news that day in 
January>.

In January, it tooks weeks to not get ill when I thought of what Pete was 
accused of doing.  I knew that no matter what were the facts of the case, he 
would be forever branded.  I believed what was reported  at that time that he 
had used his credit card to visit the child porn.  I also believe that the 
reason was connected to the book he is writing which touches on his belief 
that he was abused by his grandmother.  

The shock and horror <not awe>, in January was dealt with, analyzed and put 
in it's proper place.  

Yesterday's news was of no shock and no horror.  Furthermore, I don't believe 
Pete is in denial.  Everything he says makes sense to me.

Kevin,

I know, when I look at my children, the very thought of someone harming them 
in anyway brings out anger <even potential violence to the abuser>.  That is 
even more so when they are defenseless such as your precious baby is. 

 I think about abuse almost everyday as I was sexually molested by a 
convicted pedophile and photographed nude by him at the age of 11.  <Thank 
God there was no internet at that time>.  Dare I say it fucked up my mind?  
My reason for telling this is that I am not FOR child porn obviously.  Just 
to make that clear. I too, am brought to incredible anger at the thought of 
an adult abusing any child.

That being said, Pete's charity work, although hasn't helped me personally, 
is very much valid and I think should be taken into account when sentencing 
him.  Yes, he did commit a crime.  Yes, apparently he did pay money to some 
sick fucks.  He is being punished for that.  His story makes sense to me and 
is even bolstered by the fact that he has done charity work in that 
particular area.

I am not angry at Pete, not anymore.  Yes, he did put his fans through shit, 
but he is only one man.  He is not perfection.  I am so thankful my mistakes 
haven't affected more people then they have.  Imagine how it feels to make a 
mistake, break a law and know that thousands and thousands of people are out 
there dissecting the why's and what's of it.  

So, from one faulty human to another, I'd tell Pete <if I could> that he is 
forgiven by this fan for breaking the law and he should feel free to write 
and record, I'll support him.

Finally, that being said, if he is caught being "wonky" anytime soon, I am 
going to be really pissed.  I don't think he is in denial, but I do think 
counseling would be in order.

Ciao,
Jo